Unfortunately, after 8 months of not smoking I started again.
Don’t ask me why, it just happened. I felt I needed to smoke and thought I could have one cigarette. Hey, just one! But as some people have told me, it’s not only hard to quit smoking but also to stay “clean”.
Well, I hope I can manage it once again. It just takes time to be ready again, psychologically I mean.
Let’s hope for the best. What’s your experience?
Yes!
Wow one week of not-smoking cigarettes is over and I thought I’d invite my girlfriend to some luxurious dinner. Hey I’ve got it: I saved 30,47 Euros in one week only because of not smoking. Here are some more statistics for this one week:
No I didn’t start smoking again if you wonder why I haven’t posted in such a long time.
I was stressed with moving into a new apartment. Waking up at 6 in the morning. Dead tired from the last day and just a little bit of time after having stopped with smoking. It’s freezing and dark outside. I have to turn on the light in the apartment. I need a coffee, now! As soon as I stand in the kitchen in front of the espresso machine the Pavlov effect comes into place: I need a smoke! But there is none and keeping me from smoking still works, although it’s much harder than the first day.
Four people helped us with moving the furniture and guess what: all of them are smokers, and even worse: one offered me a cigarette.
Crazy, hardcore, fucking shit. I thought I would kill myself in a situation like that. I thought I could never widthstand such a hard faith but I managed . I don’t exactly remember how but in the situation I told myself again:
“I’m a non-smokers because I don’t want to stink, die early and lose a lot of money” :)
…but hey I don’t want to give up the 16 hours I have been smoke-free so far.
Could it be that the nicotine patch has lost all his power while fighting against the smoking devil?
I don’t know but the last hour (1 - 2pm) I wanted to smoke one. Not desperately but I clearly wanted to smoke, even though I haven’t eaten anything, so it’s not about the must-smoke after lunch.
Probably it’s because I was working in front of the computer for a long time, calling people, etc. You could see I was subconsciously searching for my packet although I haven’t gotten one anymore :-)
Anyway, I have put on a new nicotine plaster and I think it’s already working.
Phew, I’ll go out for a walk and repeat to myself once again:
I am a non-smoker.
Smoking is not cool.
Smokerssmell bad,stink out of the mouth!
Smokers clothes smell awful.
Smokers have yellow nails.
Smokers have bad teeth.
That’s why I am a non-smoker.
My will is stronger than this fucking smoke-devil.
I don’t want to get exhausted after running 5 minutes again.
I don’t want to spend min. 4$ / day for a pack of cigarettes.
My girlfriend doesn’t smoke but is still cool
I want to live a little longer.
Fuck the smoking devil.
I am a non-smoker.
I’ve heard from older smokers that they need to cough loads in the morning and have a lot of mucus in their throat. Since I’m only 24 years old I thought this wouldn’t be a problem, but already now I notice the overproduction of horribly looking, awfully smelling and terribly tasting slime. Here’s an extra tasty picture I took this morning for you:
Even now after not smoking for 10 hours, but as I read in a medicine book that’s normal. As soon as you stop smoking the body seems to want to get rid of all this junk.
You know what: I think I have to hide this picture from my girlfriend or else she probably won’t kiss me anymore. Well I’m on my way to get clean, baby!
I just went jogging, well I tried to run for more than 5 minutes and I managed, but let me tell you: I was better at running a couple of years ago. My lungs hurt, my heart started to beat like crazy and I could hardly breathe in enough oxygen. What’s “funny” is that I saw three people with their cigarettes while running passed them. They didn’t seem very relaxed nor enjoying their smoke (as smokers usually say). They just had to satisfy their smoking devil. Nevertheless the smoke in the fresh air smelled good. But then I had to think about their lungs. Argh!
Tomorrow I’ll go outside again for a 10-minutes-run. Let’s see if it goes easier by then.
About the addiction: I guess the nicotine plasters are doing a good job, although I had some pretty wild dreams I am not nervous nor getting angry at the moment. Everything’s fine. I just need to keep my smoking devil down.
How are you doing? Have you ever tried to stop smoking? What are your experiences?
You’re invited to post some comments!
damn that’s hard when you are not allowed to smoke a cigarette and even harder if you want to drink a coffee. I read in a book that you should change your habits but I still need my coffee. Let’s just hope I can drink one without inhaling all this bullshit.
Right at this moment I’ve been a non-smoker for over 9 hours. Cool huh?
Don’t think I haven’t tried to stop before and haven’t done anything against smoking in the past but so far it just hasn’t worked for me. Neither the inhalator (pseudo-cigarette), nor the chewing gums and for sure not this brainwash book (I forgot the name) have helped me.
So this time I’ll try to stop by pure will, nicotine plasters and this blog to keep me focused.
I hardly remember any cigarette I smoked except for the one in the morning (because my nicotine level got down), after dinner, after sex, after sport (probably because the body is excited and “needs” to be calmed down again).
Here are a couple of great pictures to see what we’re doing to our lungs. Personally I find them shocking.
Even though my teeth don’t look like this yet, when I continue smoking, they will. Yummy!
Another few beauty shots:
Lovely pictures, aren’t they?
No, I’m not already that desperate but I just quit after having smoked 2 1/2 packets, only for today! Usually I have been smoking 1 1/2 packets / day, better but not really good either. Can you imagine? Do you have the faintest idea how much damage this causes to your body? Obviously you have, and for sure I should know since my mother’s a doctor and has been telling me for years I should stop smoking.
Well, once again I’m trying to stop, this time for real. Yeah yeah you say? Yeah yeah I say too. But let’s see how it goes.
I bought some nicotine plasters and sticked one on. It’s got 21mg which is kind of the amount I have been inhaling per day together with over 80 other death-causing ingredients the past 10 years.
And I’m starting this blog to keep track of how it’s going, post pictures, entertain myself and maybe you fellow smokers.
For the record: I stopped smoking on January 18th, 10:30pm